Even Flow..

I feel, therefore I am. This is how I feel lately. Sometimes my life seems like a roller coaster that doesn't stop. 2007 wasn't a very nice year for me. Changed jobs twice, broke up with my girlfriend, got back together, bought a house and broke up again. When going to a new year party on December 31st, I twittered "Hope 2008 will be less rocky then last year". Back then I really hoped that 2008 would be less emotional than 2007. Things turned out not to be this way. I can't say that the last 4 months were rocky, but for some reason, I find myself in new or emotional situations quite often. Of course, things started with the real breakup between Amber and me. As I wrote before, it was the best thing to do, but it wasn't easy. In December, I started my own business and of course, this brings extra excitement; meeting new people, doing business, making decisions. Business is going great, but of course there are always tough customers, debtors that don't pay, the usual. Not that this is a bad thing and I really feel that I made the right decision to start my own thing. Especially because of this, I can do the things I really want. I love to travel and having my own business allows me to see a lot of the world. I went to Prague, planned a 3 week trip to NYC again and planning on more trips this year. Traveling is great, it gives me lots of nice memories of people, different cultures and really feeds my hunger for knowledge and experience. But traveling can also be pretty emotional for me. Not in a bad way, but it does something with me. After Prague for example, I really missed the people, the city, the parties, etc.
On top of this all, I met this great girl. Last year, I met her on a business trip abroad, just as a colleague and last December we started talking again after I switched on one of my IM clients that I hadn't used for 6 months. At first it was just normal chit-chat, but after my breakup with Amber, we started to talk more about life stuff. Finally we saw each other again during the easter weekend and we spent the last two week together. I don't want to go into too much detail, but I can say it was great. The only thing is that I'm here, and she's there. I don't know what's going to happen with this in the future, I will see, but of course this is something emotional again. "What am I doing? Didn't I want a less emotional 2008?", I asked myself multiple times of the last couple of weeks. But today, I realized I was wrong last new years eve. I don't want a dull life. I don't want the same thing every day. I want to progress. I need change, so I know I live.